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oh boy. me a voyeur? hell yeah! not just that, but an auditeur as well. if i can't see, let me hear! whichever the case, it's all the hotter when the folks aren't aware that they're being 'spied' on. in this aspect it doesn't matter so much whether it's m/f or m/m. if they're hot to me, watching is a turn on, if i can only listen, it doesn't matter. just the sound get my pre-cum oozing.
for the visual, of course and obviously i enjoy pics. the professional photo shoots, of guys or sex is so staged, fluffed, and contrived that many if not most of them turn me off. it's kind of like the 'amateur' shots suggest there's a chance of getting a piece of them.
sex outside, where there's risk of getting 'caught' is also a turn on for me. so voyeur pics like these get me:
i've got a few others like these, but can't find them. not all missionary. doesn't matter. young guys fucking chicks unaware outside or inside is hot hot hot to me.
and if it isn't fucking, even a hot young guy getting off by himself unaware is hot to me. this pic gets me going. hard to tell if he knows, but it could be. i have a couple other, better voyeur hottie wanking pics, but can't find them, so here's this worthy example of a sneak peek:
there are some sexy staged ones, but they're real guys, not 'models'. i'll put them up later.
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a few days ago i got a Heart cd (Little Queen). the L O doesn't like Heart. he says they're too "rock". yet another difference between us. not a bad thing the difference. that's another entry, though, n'est-ce pas?
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dig the licks in Barracuda!!!!!! FUCK YEAH!!!!!!!
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i got OT. :-( i got all 70s again. sue me.
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apart from video, i've only gotten a few chances to watch real life. none fulfilling experiences. i own all three of the 'caught on tape' series. of course it's all m/f (cool) and a couple/few f/f bits (not so interesting to me).
actually, sometimes i wonder if hearing isn't hotter to me than seeing. when we lived in Norfolk (pronounced NAW-fuck) we lived in an old apartment building from the '20s. gorgeous. it was U-shaped. we were in the corner of the scoop of the U. our living room wall shared with the bedroom of the next apartment around the U. a young guy moved in there, a studly dude if there ever was one. one night we came home late to the sound of the other side of the wall. there was talking, laughing, then groaning, headboard against the wall, squeaks, moaning, and best of all, that skin to skin smack sound of a dude nailing the shit out of some girl. i went wet. he rolled his eyes and went to bed. i stayed there to listen, did the glass to the wall thing to magnify (they were loud enough i didn't need to), and jerked off. i shot when i heard HIM yell. i felt/saw/tasted/smelled his spunk. she and the slapping of his pile driving had kept me turned on the whole time, but what really got me was the sound of his voice. they fucked a lot. i tuned into their schedule and found the most advantageous place in the apartment to listen. we were on the inside corner of the building, but he kept his blinds shut. bastard. you know i tried to watch! i'd seen him a few times when we were each coming in or out of respective parts of the building in the scoop of the U. he always greeted me first. i had a hard time responding basically because i was also having a hard time in my pants. his voice was fantastic. deep, but not too deep. sexy. masculine. JWB has a nice voice. nearly hot, but not quite. like the rest of him.
that memory is something i can still jerk off to... both the hottie neighbor stuff and JWB's voice. that's part of why i can't wait for him to go away. he may have gone scary skank in appearance, but his voice is the same, and when i hear it, all that comes to me is that voice holding me tight saying, "i love you, seth. i love you more than anything." and i fold up like a cheap tent.
how come can he act like nothing to my face when in company of others, sheepish to my face when we're 1 on 1, then mean and hateful in emails? it fucks with my head! i'm the same whatever the situation. that's another thing that slices me up one side and then the other.
now i've wandered into a hurtful place.
i miss him again. this was supposed to get me out of that loop. what a fucking travesty in hell for me to be caught up in this.
i didn't intend for this entry to end like this, but end like this it does.
i don't think i'll be able to go back as usual to clean up the grammar and spelling and such. any tidying will have to wait.
'Heartless' just came on. how appropriate.
too seth and JWB. would that i were too stoned to cry listening to it.
i'm hurting bad now. real bad. how to put the 'everything's ducky' face on to go 'out front' (of the house) in the company of the L O i don't know. but i gotta.
again. they shoot horses, don't they?
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